Today it is beautiful outside; sunny- definitely windy; but it is supposed to be in the 40’s which is nice compared to below zero earlier this week.  Last year on Valentine’s Day we had a blizzard like none other here on Long Island.  It was super messy.  My boss at the time was stuck in an airplane with his 3 children (all under 6) for 6 hours because of the conditions.  And knowing how bad it was outside, made us sit at work the entire day.  Needless to say the drive home was treacherous.  He didn’t give a shit though…he was going to Florida.  Ass!

Anyway…today is much nicer than it was last year!  Eric and I have no real plans for this evening.  He usually doesn’t get off the train until around 7 or so, and we go out to eat all the time, so we don’t feel the need to go out on Valentine’s Day and spend double what we normally would just because it’s Valentine’s Day.  We usually look for a good recipe (as opposed to a bad one?) and cook together over the weekend.  We set the dining room table real nice and use our fine china and gorgeous drinking glasses and eat like big people.  It’ nice.  We barely use the dining room table, except for when we have company.  Normally we eat breakfast and dinner at the kitchen table.  So it’s great when we actually sit in there.  So that’s what we will do this weekend.  I always look forward to it!

We may stop by our parent’s house to say hello later tonight, but thats still up in the air right now. 

I hope you all have a wonderful day!  Many hugs and hearts go out to all of you!

XOXOXO

I’ve been a bit of a slacker with my blog lately and I apologize to all my wonderful friends, both new and old, who visit regularly to read about me.  I guess I’ve been in a bit of a funk with not many new details to provide about the whole fertility thang and nothing too exciting going on in my everyday life. 

Last night we had great friends over with their two totally adorable little guys for dinner.  I made chicken parmesan with pasta and meatballs for our meal, and then for dessert, some pound cake layered with strawberries and whipped cream.  Delish!  Even better was the good company of our awesome friends and the laughs with their boys.  Have I mentioned how adorable they are?  OK, just checking!  It was a fun night and I think the first time I’ve ever restrained from having alcohol, Rosemount Shiraz to be exact.  Which was kind of weird, but fine with me at the same time.  I actually didn’t miss it.  I saw everyone else drinking and it didn’t bother me, which is awesome.  And I love me some good red wine!  Of course playing safe, I didn’t want to go there; I may as well get used to it now.  Practice makes perfect.

We didn’t do much yesterday during the day.  In the morning we met with my father, our financial advisor, and our attorney up at my dads office to discuss setting up a Trust for Eric’s life insurance policy.  It was awkward, but necessary, especially with children on the horizon.  We had to discuss things about ages money would become available to surviving children and the way it would be distributed to them should something, God forbid, happen to Eric, and then eventually me.  We had to talk seriously about Power Of Attorney stuff and who to appoint after each other, DNR’s and all that morbid talk.  It was emotionally draining.  I don’t like to think about ANY of that, but I suppose it is smart to plan ahead.  And my father is a huge advocate of that, being a financial advisor and all.  After that I did the normal weekend cleaning and then prepared all the food for our before mentioned dinner. 

Oh Yeah!  And Friday night we went to go see 27 Dresses!  Kim now you don’t have to ask me if I’ve seen it yet…LOL.  I’ve wanted to see it for ever now.  It was good, pretty funny but I would wait until it comes out on video if you haven’t already seen it.  Just my opinion.

And now today we are kinda just hanging around.  It’s cloudy and rainy here on Long Island.  And the temperature is supposed to drop as the day goes on.  I really really really wish we would have one good snow fall!  Just one.  It always looks so pretty and then I love to go drive around the neighborhoods to see how beautiful the trees and the houses look covered in snow.  Geeeeek!  I also still have to finish cleaning and purging the upstairs spare bedroom (the one that will eventually be the nursery).  I started last week and have more to purge.  Just very not in the mood right now.  But it’s still very early here, so I’ll get to it. 

In super exciting news…this week we may find out if this cycle was a success.  I have my first beta on Tuesday!  Now, I’ve given this lots of thought, and I’m 99.229% sure I’m not going to post anything about the results for at least a week, whether it is or isn’t positive.  Why?  To protect our innocence and not jinx anything, as dumb as that may sound.  So I’m sorry folks…there will be a bit of a longer wait for you guys before you know anything.  But I have to do what I have to do.  We need to see if things move in a positive direction before yelling from a mountain top that I’m pregnant, if in fact I am. I’m sure you all understand.  I’ll still be posting regularly though…just not about whether I am or am not.  It will be extremely early in the game and I just don’t think I will feel comfortable spreading the word with it being to fresh and fragile.

On the other hand, I have been known to give out Christmas gifts early.  So be sure to check back often because I may not be able to contain myself if I am!

So today kind of sucks…A LOT!  I’m feeling quite miserable, to say the least.  It started this morning when I was laying in bed trying to convince myself to get up.  My back has been bothering me the past few days but I think it has to do with the progesterone supp’s, or at least that’s what I’m attributing it to.  But today, it is terrible soreness, all in my lower back.  I laid there squirming around like a fish out of water, ok maybe not that bad, but you know what I mean.  So needless to say I just did not want to get out of bed.  I know I know, you’re all saying, “hey, you think I want to get out of bed in the morning?”.  But this is like, it takes everything I have, every ounce of energy inside of me, to drag myself out.  It was 8am, and I literally picked my legs up and threw them to the floor.  I was finally up.  But I know in a few hours I will be tired again.  Tired to the point of nodding off.  I have started drinking decaf tea in the morning and caffeinated in the afternoon, to help keep me away until bedtime, which has been earlier and earlier each night.It wasn’t long before my crampiness started in again.  I think this may be a byproduct of the backache?  If that makes any sense.  Either that or it’s again, attributed to the progesterone.  As I sit here in my awesome office chair that I L.O.V.E., usually, I am so ridiculously uncomfortable.  I don’t know what position will leave me feeling better today.  If it’s not sitting and it’s not laying, what then?  I think I will run out and grab some Tylenol, since that’s the only thing they tell you to take when you’re pregnant, or possibly could be.  Got to play it safe here, right? 

Then there’s the constipation.  I’m not the kind of person to get constipated, EVER.  But I am.  Ho Hum.  At first I thought that it was due to the salads I’ve been eating.  Every night for the past few nights I’ve been making myself a nice big salad with baked chicken on it.  Delish!  But I’m pretty sure salad is roughage, and the opposite would happen.  I am now chalking it up to the progesterone.  Poor progesterone, such a bad rap! 

Anyway…sorry to complain to you guys.  Instead of complaining to my husband, I figured I’d spare him the frustration and pile it up onto you guys!

Oh yeah, when talking to my acupuncturist yesterday, he seemed rather confidant with our chance for success.  He said that with my age, my husband’s count and the success I’ve had with ovulating the past few cycles, we should be in good shape.  Although I know I can’t feed off of everything he or anyone else say’s and get my hopes sky high thinking this is a no- brainer, b/c it very well may not work the first time.

It’s funny because you can read any message board and find these same complaints from women who are pregnant.  I’m trying not to read into anything here.  I’m trying to stay as sane as is humanly / womanly possible. Besides, it’s waaaaay to early to feel any symptoms.  Both fortunately, and unfortunately.  Thoughts are positive, but not getting my hopes up higher than they already are.  Coasting along until next week

I can’t believe it’s been 3 days since I’ve updated my blog!  What’s wrong with me??  I feel like a bad Mom or something.  This week just seems to be escaping me.  Quickly!I did go to the doctor for my 7 day post iui blood workup yesterday.  Actually it’s just my Progesterone levels they tested.  No sono, no meeting with the doctor.  It was literally a 3 minute visit, I was floored.  Usually there are a handful of women in there and I’m in and out in all of an hour or so, but not yesterday.  I was actually the first / only one there.  They told me they would call in the afternoon by 3pm if anything to report.  This is usually protocol.

My phone rang around 2:30.  The nurse told me that the doctor wants me on Progesterone supplements…intra vaginal suppositories to be exact.  Mmmm.  Fun.  The nurse also made it very clear that this does not mean that I AM or I AM NOT pregnant.  Point taken.  I’ve read horror stories from women who are on these things.  But, I gotta do what I gotta do.  So I get instructions that the pharmacy who distributes these little fun pockets will contact me and deliver them tonight.  I get the call, go through all the insurance b.s. and they got here around 9:00 last night.  They aren’t as bad as I’ve read…yet.  The instruction packet warns of side effects such as abdominal pain and swelling, extreme fatigue, depression, mood swings, amongst many other really scary things you wouldn’t want happening to your body/ mind.  Besides the depression, I have all of those NOW!  Can these things actually make it worse?  Because honestly, if I get any more tired, I probably shouldn’t leave the house because I’d be a threat to society out on the road! 

Despite the instructions and graphic details on how to administer the meds…I wonder how many people actually still try to swallow them…LMAO!!!

So now we wait until the tail end of next week for anything more.  In the meantime I saw my acupuncturist this morning for a support session to help raise my progesterone levels as well.  Besides it is uber relaxing!  Ahhh, I love it.

Otherwise, nothing new going on ’round my hood.  Things are status quo.