This morning as the alarm clock started belting out “Jingle Bell Rock” at 5:15, I quickly thrashed my hand down over the snooze button.  I had the alarm clock set to get up for my 6am sculpting class.  I was exhausted; I don’t know why, my biggest outing this past weekend was yesterday’s shopping trip.  The wind was howling outside and I just knew it was going to be rather ice cubish out there.  So I snoozed until 5:30.  This now meant that I had to get up, get dressed, wash up, put something light in my belly so I don’t pass out during walking lunges, and be out the door in 15 minutes.  If anybody knows me, I need more like 30.  Not because I’m difficult, just because I don’t like to rush.  I enjoy a multigrain English muffin toasted with some peanut butter before class and today I had to inhale some bran flakes with skim milk and it’s still repeating on me, in ways we won’t discuss.  Although I’m thinking this may be yet another Clomid side effect.

Anyway, I had also started my car as soon as I woke up so it would be uber toasty by the time I had to leave although when I tried to get in it, the doors wouldn’t open.  At first I thought the doors were frozen shut, but then I realized that they were not unlocking with my remote.  So what did I do?  I ran inside like a lunatic, water bottle flailing around, and yelled out for my husband to come to my rescue so that I wouldn’t be late!  He went outside, put the key in the lock, unlocked the door manually and said, “The locks are probably frozen shut.”  Duh…what an idiot I am.  So I went on my merry way, reminding myself of what an idiot I am.

What’s my point? 

My point is that I definitely have plenty of time on my hands, yet I still feel like I just can’t ‘get it together’.  Have you ever felt this way?  It’s as if my mind is everywhere, all the time.  Just yesterday my husband and I were talking about our Christmas Eve plans and he told me that we had already discussed what we would and would not attend.  Oh, we did?  It’s like my brain is scrambled.  And I’m not enjoying it.  I need to take a deep breath, organize my thoughts (and myself) and move on. 

Any tips on how to get myself together??  Please share.

P.S. - Tonight @ 7 I have a 4 week follow up with my OB/GYN.  I’m not so sure what we will be discussing since I only just finished my 2nd round of Clomid, but it makes me feel confidant about the whole situation when we meet with him.  Wish me luck!